Fight with mom again. I dyed my hair from light blonde to dark brown and she's been bitching about it for days now, probably just an excuse to take her misplaced anger out on me some more. She's just screaming at me to move in to my dads which I can't do because I've put half of my high school career into student council at the school that I'm at now. It didn't take her long to start telling me how much of a loser I am and I pathetic and ugly I am. I wish the people at the adoption agency had screened the potential parents just a little bit better. This has been going on nonstop for four years I don't know how much more of it I can take. But for now I'm stuck alone with someone that hates me, now that my sister is off to college. I'll never be able to bring myself to really hate her though, because she's all I have. I miss how things used to be.
Here I stand Empty hands Wishing my wrists were bleeding To stop the pain from the beatings